Director's Statement When I was in secondary school, I was always afraid to go to the school toilet alone. My school mates always followed me with a nice talk but when no one was around, they started to humiliate me. They tied me up, grabbed my waist from behind and started simulating anal sex and forced me to do oral sex. This situation put me in a deep stress and uncomfortable situation as à teenager. The trauma left me with difficulty being in love with someone or never getting intimacy with someone. Whenever I am in a love mood, this horrible memory appears in my head. I have the voices in my head. The voices always make me crazy. I always think of the strange feeling that no one would understand me.I always wonder if I am abroad and I will explore my sexual desire as I wish. But when I arrived in Paris, I could not get over all the trauma. The situation that I’m facing right now is that I feel alone as a creature who migrated to another country where I never felt I belonged. I want to make this story almost like a true story from my life with my observation of migrant people who are living in Paris. It's a story of a guy who has trauma in his past and begins to explore his sexuality in a new environment. As an southeast asian filmmaker especially coming from Myanmar is the most challenging to make a film in Paris. At first, I even had an idea to make a short film in Paris but I am not sure I can make it into a film because of many difficulties such as the location that I want to shoot, the budget that we have to look for etc. After I pitched my story to my producer Angele and developed my story with John, I finally made it into film. Apart from me, my actor from Myanmar who lives now in Lyon and my producer John Badalu, the whole crew are French artists who are willing to support me on my project. They believe in my project. They only work for me with love and passion. I am so proud and so happy. This film became an important part of my life. Even Though the story is dealing with trauma with my past abusive life, I portray the lack of sex and love life combination of reality and fantasy. This is my very first time experiencing working with such a professional artist in my filmmaking life. This film is dedicated to people who has been dealing with sexual abuse and trauma which can not easily to get rid of from their mind. I have already made this film, I have been open about my abusive life from the teenage past, but I still hear those abusive voices in my head, until now.
